I'm back from my hiatus. For now, at least.

My life's been really chaotic lately. I feel that, as I'm getting older, I feel the need to break free. I was never one who'd go out to parties and come home stinking drunk. My mom would've probably killed me if I did. I was never really into that scene anyway. I preferred being at home where I could just chat on the phone for hours. Ask any of my primary school friends and they'll tell you it's true.

Yes, I talk a lot. Hence, people perceive me as being sociable. I don't really think I am. I think I'm shy and cautious when it comes to meeting people for the first time. I still am that way. It takes me a while to warm up to people. And I'm a blubbering idiot. I tend to say things that makes absolutely no sense sometimes.

Yea, I miss my high school days a lot. The only thing that worried me then was, "Would I pass that exam I took?", " Would this guy like me?" and " Where should I go shopping this weekend?"

Gosh.

This year is a trying year for me. It seems to be taxing me emotionally. I feel somehow that life's just been an emotional roller-coaster ride. I feel like my heart's been making the wrong choices. But at least this way, I know who I should cut out from my life as well as who my real friends are. I'm not really a great judge of character. I tend to have wishful thinkings of those whom I like.

But I need to move on. I need to stop dwelling in "what ifs" and "what could have been". It's hard, but I will forget eventually... and one day in the near future, when I do remember it, it'll just be a distant memory.

A bitter sweet memory.

I haven't got paid yet! WtF~!!!!

I don't understand why my pay isn't in on time THIS TIME! >_< I'm so pissed. Grrrrrr!!! Usually my pay would be in the bank the last working day of the month. And yesterday was technically the last working day of the month!

This is shiets!

*goes partially insane* I NEED CASH!

of something special and dear to you is never easy. Why is it when a human passes on, everyone in the world seem to mourn, but when an animal does, no one even looks twice? Well, today we lost something dear to us.

Nikki, our daschund, has passed on. I wouldn't call it a sudden death as she had been ill for awhile. She was weak and could hardly lift her head. We brought her to the vet and he had told us that her kidneys were failing and that the only thing we could do was to make her as comfortable as possible. Even though she was stubborn and an attention seeker, she was still lovable.

Her last hour was spent with Danny helping her clean her eyes. They were sunken in and have lost that twinkle. I suppose now she's no longer suffering. Danny and I will be sending her to PAWs for a burial later... and I'm trying hard not to start crying again when the time comes.

in japanese. But the Nana I'm writing about is something else, something I've watched once and am still obsessed over it! I just love Nana! If you don't already know, Nana is a manga written by Ai Yazawa about these two girls who met by fate. They're complete opposites, Komatsu Nana is the girly girl ( aka Hatchi) and Oosaki Nana is the lead vocalist for this band called Black Stones ( Blast for short).

So yes, after watching the live action version of Nana, I fell instantly in love! Especially with the music! Go here [link] for more information on the actors and actresses who played their parts so well in the movie.

Anyway, I went insane while I was in Singapore. I bought the first two Nana mangas there. Yes, I actually paid Singapore Dollars for them. Come to think of it, it would actually sum up to the same ammount if I bought it here in Malaysia. ( maybe a little more by a few cents) I couldn't wait for the 3rd book to come out, so I had to get my brother help me download it. =.=" Yea, I'm pretty useless at these kinda things. XD Ai Yazawa is a GENIUS ! Her writing is so genuine.

I love love love NANA! <3>

It's been five months since I've actually posted anything up. Truth be told, I was getting a wee bit lazy and found it tedious to turn on the computer. :P Yes, I'm lazy and I admit it. Anyway, for the past month I've been blogging elsewhere which I'm not sure I would like to reveal just yet.

Honestly, I dont think many read this blog of mine since everything I write seems pretty uninteresting. Ah well, that's my life... I myself finds it boring sometimes.=.="

Anyway, just to update... I AM ALIVE! I just had a little writer's block. Hehe... I am still working at the same place and am still enjoying it, though as usual... I would like a pay rise. :S Life is still beautiful with Danny. ;) We're going up to Genting's this weekend with his family. It's kinda what we do during the long weekend things. :D

I've also got a little bunny named Nibbles. Yea, I wasn't thinking when I named him that, so sue me. But he's an adorable baby although sometimes pretty naughty. He's gotten fat in the past 4 weeks he's been here. But he's been scratching at his box... which annoys me sometimes cos it wakes me in the middle of the night. Any idea on how to make him stop?

So yea... been busy last weekend with the Movie Carnival event. It was hell... but I guess it was fun too. I got to meet Sharifah Amani & Alan Yun of Gubra. ;) Thanks to Linus. :D I got to take a picture too though after that whole "star struck" feeling, it soon died down. So now, I have an autographed picture, but I have no place to put it. XD

I've also finally turned 21. Yay, me! Some of you might have thought I had something grand planned out... but in truth, I didn't celebrate. Why, you ask? It was a working day and I just didn't feel like celebrating. I felt a little depressed knowing I'm now a LEGAL adult. *sigh* I guess it isn't so bad after a while.. but yea...*sighs summore*

So now you know a little of what has happened to me these past months. I'll see when I feel like blogging next. To me, this blog sort of represents my younger self. I know I haven't really become THAT old... But it's just that feeling.

I better sign off now before I start babbling some more. Till the next blog date. ;)

I seriously need to revamp my blog. I know I haven't even been blogging enough lately, but I think it's time. Anyway, to update you guys on what's been happening.

I've been going to a lot of movie screenings... both watching and working. I enjoy working during screenings... providing I don't have to work the next day, or the movie isn't something I'd see. This is because I'll come home by 11:30 pm, take a nice refreshing shower and hit the hay. I feel as though I don't really have a life anymore...O.o Don't get me wrong, I really love my job ( unless something totally screwed my whole day) but sometimes I wish I could just walk into work whenever I want without feeling guilty. Imagine this, even when I'm sick at home, I feel guilty for not being at work. I know... it's weird.

But yea... tons of screenings... I caught Tim Burton's Corpse Bride about 3 weeks ago and I loved it. I'm just so amazed at how precised he is at his work. I don't think I'm patient enough to do that. I tend to take the easy way out, I guess.

I caught a glimpse of Planet Shakers last weekend. I really like their music. But I couldn't really see anything since there were sooooo many people there and Danny and I couldn't stay long since he had some work to finish up. I promised Sue we'd go, that's why we dropped by for a while. Danny really wanted their black ( limited edition, I think) T-shirt... but they wouldn't sell it to us since it wasn't intermission yet. It's policy I guess... so we didn't wanna push it. The guy selling the cds was nice enough though. XD I saw a few former church members. Actually, I kinda miss going to church... youth church, that is. I miss the singing, I miss some of the company... what I prolly don't miss is the early wake-ups...O.o

Future plans are basically having company over during the weekend and going to Melbourne. Oh! And christmas shopping....O.o I'm still contemplating on what to get for some of the people I know. And no, I'm not gonna write down what I'm thinking of buying...haha... instead, I'll tell you my wishlist. I was looking at the MPH catalogue the other day and realized that some of the stuff was going at a pretty good price.

I really want to get " The Chronicles Of Narnia" boxset. I figured it would be much cheaper ( RM 113 cheaper, in fact) to buy the boxset rather than single books. I was thinking of buying them before the movie comes out... but I don't think it'd happen cos I won't have time to read them anyway.

I see this pretty neat stuff here. A "Simply Guitar Boxset". It's going at a pretty reasonable price... RM 39.90. :D I REALLY wanna learn to play the guitar... but I sooo can't afford lessons. :S Best to teach myself. Besides, Danny wants to pick up guitar too! Maybe we'll start a band...hahaa!

Oh! Tarot cards! Everyone should have tarot cards. I've always been facinated by them. Maybe I am a little superstitious at heart. *shrug* It's called the "Simply Tarot Gift" boxset. Pretty cool.

Oh, oh! A book on baking. :D It's called William-Sonoma: Baking. Looks pretty cool. I always liked baking. I like looking for recipes and making em for my friends. :D It's about RM 87.90. Pretty steep for a cook book. But it's got over 200 recipes~

Sudoku's also my new hype... I dunno why, but it's really challenging. :D Surprising, since I'm not a fan of mind boggling puzzles and numbers... ESPECIALLY numbers. I was never good at math. But this doesn't require calculations. :D It's pretty pricey for a book on this. That's why I never got it on my own. I'd rather play it for free online. :D

But yea... that's my wish list. XD Till another update.... ta-ta~

I am SO TIRED! I woke up this morning at 6 am cos I couldnt really sleep the night before. I guess you could say I was feeling anxious and excited at the same time. The night before, after work, a group of us who were involved in the treasure hunt had to talk things through one last time to ensure that everything will most likely run smoothly the next day. So yea, I had dinner with the bosses... which DID feel weird.

Okay, not to get side tracked. Anyway, I got up early, made breakfast ( which I hardly ate) as I waited for Danny to load the chocolates into the car. We made our way to Pyramid/Lagoon and we were the earliest two save for some other people who were involved in their own "family day" thingy.

The one thing that I am amazed at is... the participants ACTUALLY CAME by 8:30am when I asked them to. O.o Okay, so maybe not ALL malaysians follow the "malaysian time" XD Everything was a little hectic as we kinda got delayed during the briefing of participants.

I would say everything ended well at the end of the day. No one got hurt ( thank goodness) people were satisfied, the participants enjoyed themselves ( I hope) and well... I had fun. It was a lot of hard work... not something I wanna organize again soon... but maybe next time. ^^

I guess one of the highlights for me was to see my boss in a cowboy costume..XD and also prolly watching the participants run about. ^^ Downside however was the ammount of walking I did. The park MAY BE smaller now... but it's sure as hell ain't easy to walk around.